I can still remember the first time I photographed Diana. The circumstances were incredible. This was a new time for us, a time for healing and renewal. I thought I was so cool and artsy. I brought my tripod over, a lamp for light, and rolls of film. We sat in her bedroom as I setup my equipment. At first there was this silence.... we just smiled at each other, and nodded. I put my film in the camera, and then we just stood there. I didn't know what I wanted "specifically", I just knew I wanted to stare at her smile forever.
After months of not really speaking to each other, there we were, (finally! just existing in each others presence). I hid behind my camera, it was easy just to stare, to evaluate. How do men describe women's beauty? some say "oh your so gorgeous!" others may use a pick up line. Not me. True beauty needs no words, because words don't justify what the eyes behold. Diana is that type of beauty, a speechless type that leaves me staring like a fool.
This picture here is one of the first I've ever made of Diana. Like us at the time, the photo is grainy, out of focus, and overall, uncertain. We were so fresh, so eager to finally be happy. Nothing is more intimate than letting someone photograph you. She did just that, she gave me everything and she trusted me. I can't help but smile when I see her starring in this photo. LOOK AT IT! so charged with sincerity. This woman loves me, and this photo says it all. The shoot wasn't all seriousness! My God, we had some laughs. I asked Diana to lay her head back on my lap and to close her eyes. Once Diana gets the case of the giggles, THAT'S IT! for some reason she couldn't stop laughing! of course that cute giggle of hers is contagious and it gets me laughing too. I wish I could show the contact sheet, (so many smiles). But I got what I wanted, a chance to just sit down and finally look at her, to not only appreciate her beauty, but to appreciate her soul. This woman is beautiful within and without. After the shoot, Diana sat up in bed and drew me close to her, thats when we shared one of the the most love filled kisses I have ever felt.
Nearly two years have past since that moment, and I still photograph Diana, and still receive those awesome "love" filled kisses. This is the latest photograph I've made of Diana! She's resting in bed and letting that light fall on her hands. I remember wanting to take a different photo, but when I saw her rubbing her eyes from being tired, I got inspired to do this instead. Now the photos are a lot sharper and absolutely clear like our relationship. I'm not saying we're perfect, (and Diana would be the first to remind me of that when I try to avoid arguments), but i just know for sure that i'm crazy in love with her and I hate being away from her. Diana always tells me "I don't want to grow old", and I understand why she doesn't want to. No one want to have grey hair, to struggle to walk, to wrinkle and scream the word "WHAT!!???" when someone asks us a question. Well, even though she doesn't want to age, I look forward to being the one to age with her, (and also making photos of her). It's not even about making art anymore. I don't know if I want to really be known as a artist, I just want to be known as a man who truly loved. I cant wait to see what the next photo of her will be. I want to photograph us moving into our first house, sharing our first christmas, our wedding night, ALL our anniversaries, and ALL of our loved filed adventures. That's mostly it, I just know I'm happiest with her, and everyday without her is a day lost, and a photograph missed. I love you Diana, and I always will <3
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